the words weren’t mine

you should be relieved it’s all your own fault

some of us get rejected for nothing
as scarily dayglo as behaviour
and have to live with knowing there’s something
essential that just can’t make any luck
however handy the circumstances

I can’t mean that can I                 she was over
dramatic with gestures admittedly
it’s the very act of saying as much
the runaway smile blindly implying
I have my own way with significance
regardless of it barely sitting still
that conjured the fug back then and right now
I really do have better things to be